Ok, I've been lazy, sort of. The shift I work at my new job is kinda crazy, and I've just not had the wherewithal to post. I pledge to try to be more timely.
That said, it's autumn! My favorite time of year! I'm so not a summer person, the heat and humidity just wipe me out. What's so great about breaking a sweat sitting in your living room? Nothing at all that I can see.
I love the cooling down temperatures, the longer nights, leaves turning in their bright colors. The cycle of life: spring is the youth, all fresh and hopeful; summer, the adult in her full glory; fall the middle aged, secure in herself; and winter is the crone, severe and harsh but with a beauty all her own.
Thanksgiving is next week, and I plan to do a whole lot of cooking, reading and writing.
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Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Back to Work
I may have to change the name of this blog, as I am once again gainfully employed. Woot! I started 3 weeks ago. It's a call center job - not my favorite, but it's A JOB. It's a better commute than my last full time job and pays almost as much. And they give quarterly bonuses based on clear cut performance standards. So, there's that.
I'm still nervous about it, though. I now know that any job can be erased at a moment's notice, on a management whim (or so it seems) and so there's a small voice in my heart whispering, "keep looking...don't get too comfy...just ...DON'T"
I'll be working an afternoon shift - 10:45am to 8pm Monday/Tuesday/Thursday/Friday and 10am-3pm on Saturdays, Wednesdays off. based on my experience there of 3 weeks, the call volume is slow in the afternoons, and drops even more after 5pm. I'm gonna regret saying this, I'm sure, but it seems fairly easy so far.
Hope I don't have to eat those words....
I'm still nervous about it, though. I now know that any job can be erased at a moment's notice, on a management whim (or so it seems) and so there's a small voice in my heart whispering, "keep looking...don't get too comfy...just ...DON'T"
I'll be working an afternoon shift - 10:45am to 8pm Monday/Tuesday/Thursday/Friday and 10am-3pm on Saturdays, Wednesdays off. based on my experience there of 3 weeks, the call volume is slow in the afternoons, and drops even more after 5pm. I'm gonna regret saying this, I'm sure, but it seems fairly easy so far.
Hope I don't have to eat those words....
Sunday, September 19, 2010
EUREKA!!!!
It's official, my sentence of unemployment has ended! I will be starting a new job tomorrow, and while I'm excited to be gainfully employed again, I'm really nervous about this.
It's not a job I haven't done before - it's customer service in the benefits industry - but it's the idea of starting over, I guess. Learning a new computer system, new co-workers, being the new kid on the block. I think I'm looking at this the wrong way - Instead of being nervous and apprehensive, I should see it as a fresh start. A chance to do good stuff.
So, I hereby resolve to do just that: to make this anxiety work for me, not against me, and rise to the challenge.
I'll keep you posted....
It's not a job I haven't done before - it's customer service in the benefits industry - but it's the idea of starting over, I guess. Learning a new computer system, new co-workers, being the new kid on the block. I think I'm looking at this the wrong way - Instead of being nervous and apprehensive, I should see it as a fresh start. A chance to do good stuff.
So, I hereby resolve to do just that: to make this anxiety work for me, not against me, and rise to the challenge.
I'll keep you posted....
Monday, September 6, 2010
Labor Day
Been a busy time here. Still looking for work. I received an email from the Feds that I was deemed qualified for one of the jobs I'd applied for and that my resume was being forwarded to the selection personnel. Now it's a case of hurry up and wait.
I was sent on an interview thru the temp agency I enrolled with, to a local chiropractor's office. The interview went well, I think, except that the interviewer said, "It's clear you have everything I'm looking for, but I have one concern. How do I know you won't leave when you get a better offer?"
They're offering $9/hr and no benefits.
I replied that I understood her concern, but I was interested in the position, and that I would commit to doing the best job I was capable of. Seriously, did she expect me to say, Oh, no sweat, I promise I'll stick around for the next 10 years...what guarantee does any employer get that the employee won't quit after a week? What guarantee does the employer give that the employee won't be let go on a whim? It's called "at-will" work. You want to tie me in, then pay a better wage and give me a contract.
I doubt they'll offer this job to me, but the pathetic thing is that if they do, I'll probably accept it.
And I've been depressed ever since the interview last Thursday, trying to figure out if I really even want this job. I mean, I do want it, it's a job. But I don't think I can actually make it on that salary. And I worry that if they offer and I turn it down, it will disqualify me for any additional unemployment. A rock and a hard place, is what they call this.
On a brighter note: my tax preparer class starts next Monday. I'm excited to be doing this, to be learning a new skill set.
So, Happy Labor Day to all!
I was sent on an interview thru the temp agency I enrolled with, to a local chiropractor's office. The interview went well, I think, except that the interviewer said, "It's clear you have everything I'm looking for, but I have one concern. How do I know you won't leave when you get a better offer?"
They're offering $9/hr and no benefits.
I replied that I understood her concern, but I was interested in the position, and that I would commit to doing the best job I was capable of. Seriously, did she expect me to say, Oh, no sweat, I promise I'll stick around for the next 10 years...what guarantee does any employer get that the employee won't quit after a week? What guarantee does the employer give that the employee won't be let go on a whim? It's called "at-will" work. You want to tie me in, then pay a better wage and give me a contract.
I doubt they'll offer this job to me, but the pathetic thing is that if they do, I'll probably accept it.
And I've been depressed ever since the interview last Thursday, trying to figure out if I really even want this job. I mean, I do want it, it's a job. But I don't think I can actually make it on that salary. And I worry that if they offer and I turn it down, it will disqualify me for any additional unemployment. A rock and a hard place, is what they call this.
On a brighter note: my tax preparer class starts next Monday. I'm excited to be doing this, to be learning a new skill set.
So, Happy Labor Day to all!
Monday, August 30, 2010
Learn something new every day
I learned something interesting about taking Ambien. I got the script months ago, and I only use it when absolutely necessary. Last Saturday, I took one because I'd had several nights of little sleep.
So, I took one Saturday around 10PM. Now, the thing about Ambien is you've got to be able to commit to a full 7- 8 hours of sleep time. And here's why:
At 3AM Sunday morning, the phone rang. it was an elderly neighbor, she was feeling ill and needed help. So I got up - this is after about 4.5 hours of sleep - and went next door. I helped her get all her meds together while we waited for the ambulance, helped the EMTs get her ready for the ride to the hospital and when her niece showed up, I went back home.
I was awake but very foggy for a little while longer, then fell back to sleep and woke about 6AM. I got up, did my usual routine and went about the day, but with the worst depression I've felt in a long time. For the entire day, I was sad and anxious and jittery. It's pretty scary to be in Bed Bath & Beyond, choking back tears at the sight of a hamburger maker, because your mom bought you one like it when you went away to college.
This crappy mood lifted late in the afternoon, and all I can figure is that the interruption of the Ambien sleep is what caused it. Not to say I wouldn't get up and help my neighbor again, of course I would, or that you should never take this medication - just a little caveat in case you ever do have need for it. or you, too, can frighten the 18 year old clerk at BB&B.
So, I took one Saturday around 10PM. Now, the thing about Ambien is you've got to be able to commit to a full 7- 8 hours of sleep time. And here's why:
At 3AM Sunday morning, the phone rang. it was an elderly neighbor, she was feeling ill and needed help. So I got up - this is after about 4.5 hours of sleep - and went next door. I helped her get all her meds together while we waited for the ambulance, helped the EMTs get her ready for the ride to the hospital and when her niece showed up, I went back home.
I was awake but very foggy for a little while longer, then fell back to sleep and woke about 6AM. I got up, did my usual routine and went about the day, but with the worst depression I've felt in a long time. For the entire day, I was sad and anxious and jittery. It's pretty scary to be in Bed Bath & Beyond, choking back tears at the sight of a hamburger maker, because your mom bought you one like it when you went away to college.
This crappy mood lifted late in the afternoon, and all I can figure is that the interruption of the Ambien sleep is what caused it. Not to say I wouldn't get up and help my neighbor again, of course I would, or that you should never take this medication - just a little caveat in case you ever do have need for it. or you, too, can frighten the 18 year old clerk at BB&B.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Saturday, August21, 2010, 06:41AM
Interview Update - it would appear that I was not hired. A disappointment, but life goes on.
I've been awake since 4 o'clock, online, job searching and completing applications. It's hot in my den, I'm hungry and grouchy.
I was talking with a friend last night and he made a comment about being bored at work. Another friend often complains about her job. I have still another friend who is a stay-at-home wife, no kids, and so very certain that she has all the answers. I'm so very certain she does not.
Every time I hear an employed person whine about some trivial happening at their job, it's like a knife to my heart. I want to just shake them and yell, "GRATITUDE??? EVER HEARD OF IT??"
Yeah, I know, I bitched about trivial stuff when I was working, too, and I most likely will do it again, if I ever get another job. But it's so hard to hear, when I'd be so happy to pick up part-time work right now.
Guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself this morning.
I've been awake since 4 o'clock, online, job searching and completing applications. It's hot in my den, I'm hungry and grouchy.
I was talking with a friend last night and he made a comment about being bored at work. Another friend often complains about her job. I have still another friend who is a stay-at-home wife, no kids, and so very certain that she has all the answers. I'm so very certain she does not.
Every time I hear an employed person whine about some trivial happening at their job, it's like a knife to my heart. I want to just shake them and yell, "GRATITUDE??? EVER HEARD OF IT??"
Yeah, I know, I bitched about trivial stuff when I was working, too, and I most likely will do it again, if I ever get another job. But it's so hard to hear, when I'd be so happy to pick up part-time work right now.
Guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself this morning.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Need to rant
OK, I'm not a sports fan, let me be upfront about that. So, I heard on the news this morning about some football guy for the Redskins who hasn't managed to pass the pre-season physical tests, and who excused himself from practice because he didn't feel good. here's the kicker - this kid makes something like $100M - ok, that sounds like a lot even for sports, but it was a HELLUVA BIG NUMBER.
What is up with that? First off, how do they justify these salaries? Yeah, yeah, I know - it's limited life span career and these people have talent ---come gain? THAT makes them worth millions?? Ever heard of education?
What nonsense professional sports are - grown adults playing kid's games, and half the time they don't act like they give hoot about the game. Little League players have more heart than these oafs. Give me a break!!
What is up with that? First off, how do they justify these salaries? Yeah, yeah, I know - it's limited life span career and these people have talent ---come gain? THAT makes them worth millions?? Ever heard of education?
What nonsense professional sports are - grown adults playing kid's games, and half the time they don't act like they give hoot about the game. Little League players have more heart than these oafs. Give me a break!!
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Sunday, Bloody Sunday
For the past two weeks, I've been fighting health issues - nothing very serious, just annoying and painful. I'm feeling loads better now though, thanks to the miracles of modern pharmaceuticals. God bless Diflucan.
This past Friday, I attended a group interview for a position with a local university. It's my shallow understanding that these are now the done thing for employers - it's a way for them to see a big group of candidates and weed out the obviously bad choices.
Here's what I advise if you get invited to one of these:
1. They're intimidating, yes indeed. Check out the candidates quickly when you first sit down: Who seems polished, confident, knowledgeable and who doesn't.
2. When the moderator(s) introduce themselves, jot down their names and some quick notes so you remember who they are (i.e. Sue, head of accounting, blue dress)
3. Pay attention (duh) to what the moderators tell the group, and make some notes - stuff you want to followup on in the Q&A. Of course, you will already have some questions written down because you did your research on the company before walking into the interview, right?
4. Have your elevator speech prepared, have it in your notebook so that you can refer to it, and be prepared to switch it around if you need to. Your elevator speech should focus on YOUR RELEVANT WORK HISTORY AND EDUCATION. Babbling about your 6 kids and the shelter puppy you got yesterday is not relevant, most likely. BE SUCCINCT. You've got maybe 3 minutes before the moderators' eyes glaze over. And if you're not comfortable making jokes in front of a group, don't try to be funny.
5. When you're making your speech, focus on the moderators. That's your target audience, not the other candidates in the room. Make eye contact with each of them, but give the most attention to the one who appears to be in charge.
6. ASK QUESTIONS. In my Friday Interview, 3 of us asked questions, out of a group of 20. My guess is that made the employer's decision process a tiny bit easier.
OK, I'll know this week if I was hired , and I'll post that result here. I think I acquitted myself well in the interview, and my fingers will be crossed. Have a good week!
This past Friday, I attended a group interview for a position with a local university. It's my shallow understanding that these are now the done thing for employers - it's a way for them to see a big group of candidates and weed out the obviously bad choices.
Here's what I advise if you get invited to one of these:
1. They're intimidating, yes indeed. Check out the candidates quickly when you first sit down: Who seems polished, confident, knowledgeable and who doesn't.
2. When the moderator(s) introduce themselves, jot down their names and some quick notes so you remember who they are (i.e. Sue, head of accounting, blue dress)
3. Pay attention (duh) to what the moderators tell the group, and make some notes - stuff you want to followup on in the Q&A. Of course, you will already have some questions written down because you did your research on the company before walking into the interview, right?
4. Have your elevator speech prepared, have it in your notebook so that you can refer to it, and be prepared to switch it around if you need to. Your elevator speech should focus on YOUR RELEVANT WORK HISTORY AND EDUCATION. Babbling about your 6 kids and the shelter puppy you got yesterday is not relevant, most likely. BE SUCCINCT. You've got maybe 3 minutes before the moderators' eyes glaze over. And if you're not comfortable making jokes in front of a group, don't try to be funny.
5. When you're making your speech, focus on the moderators. That's your target audience, not the other candidates in the room. Make eye contact with each of them, but give the most attention to the one who appears to be in charge.
6. ASK QUESTIONS. In my Friday Interview, 3 of us asked questions, out of a group of 20. My guess is that made the employer's decision process a tiny bit easier.
OK, I'll know this week if I was hired , and I'll post that result here. I think I acquitted myself well in the interview, and my fingers will be crossed. Have a good week!
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Sometimes you get what you need
OK, being unemployed, I try not to spend money on unnecessary things, right? Well, last week, the little air conditioner in my bedroom quit on me. I was devastated - I really need a cool room for sleeping, all year round. In the winter, I rarely even turn the heat on in the bedroom.
So, here I am, middle of the hottest summer in years, the a/c in the bedroom is dead. So I turned it off and started trolling the Interwebs for a deal (loosely speaking) on a/c units. I really didn't like that I might have to buy one - not the best time for "major" purchases, right? But I was willing - like I said, hot summer nights et al, and more coming, and I have an interview next week that I'd like to ace. So I decided to bite the bullet and go for it, if I could find one for around $110.
Best Buy had one for about $100 online, so I went to the local BB store - none in stock, not planning to get any more. I went all over this town - Kmart, WalMart, Sears, Target, Big Lots, the local mom -n- pop joints, the PAWN shops....nuthin', not not way. Well, except Sears had a 12,000btu for $500. I laughed and walked out.
So back to Big Lots, my go-to store for cheap stuff, and picked up a 40" oscillating fan. Reasonably priced. Nice, too. Works well, I recommend it. Used it Friday night, kept the bedroom comfy, if not meat-locker cold.
Saturday morning, I'm cleaning. On a whim, I turn the a/c temperature dial down to low cool, flip the thing on, and Hallelujah!! The compressor kicks back to life and out flows blessedly cold, refreshing air!
I guess the thing had maybe frozen up (?) and needed to defrost (??) - hey, whadda I know from air conditioners? - and I don't care what it was, I am just thrilled that it's working again and I didn't have to shell out $100+ bucks for a new unit. Thank you, angels of the air conditioning, for resurrecting my cool air!
(No blasphemy is intended, I am very thankful!)
So, here I am, middle of the hottest summer in years, the a/c in the bedroom is dead. So I turned it off and started trolling the Interwebs for a deal (loosely speaking) on a/c units. I really didn't like that I might have to buy one - not the best time for "major" purchases, right? But I was willing - like I said, hot summer nights et al, and more coming, and I have an interview next week that I'd like to ace. So I decided to bite the bullet and go for it, if I could find one for around $110.
Best Buy had one for about $100 online, so I went to the local BB store - none in stock, not planning to get any more. I went all over this town - Kmart, WalMart, Sears, Target, Big Lots, the local mom -n- pop joints, the PAWN shops....nuthin', not not way. Well, except Sears had a 12,000btu for $500. I laughed and walked out.
So back to Big Lots, my go-to store for cheap stuff, and picked up a 40" oscillating fan. Reasonably priced. Nice, too. Works well, I recommend it. Used it Friday night, kept the bedroom comfy, if not meat-locker cold.
Saturday morning, I'm cleaning. On a whim, I turn the a/c temperature dial down to low cool, flip the thing on, and Hallelujah!! The compressor kicks back to life and out flows blessedly cold, refreshing air!
I guess the thing had maybe frozen up (?) and needed to defrost (??) - hey, whadda I know from air conditioners? - and I don't care what it was, I am just thrilled that it's working again and I didn't have to shell out $100+ bucks for a new unit. Thank you, angels of the air conditioning, for resurrecting my cool air!
(No blasphemy is intended, I am very thankful!)
Thursday, August 5, 2010
New writing page post
Check it out - it's a part from a longer work, more will be posted in sequence. Enjoy.
Thursday Thoughts
Do you ever read craigslist.org? Maybe "read" is the wrong word - yeah, you're reading printed words, but is it really reading material? I've become somewhat of an expert on this, IMHO, since I read through many pages of CL every day, looking for jobs, stuff for sale, and my own personal favorite, the rants and raves pages.
They're like watching a nasty accident on the highway: you're riveted despite your horror and revulsion. I read these posts and everyday I'm appalled and dismayed by the hatred and ignorance spewed forth. There's a need for boards like RnR, for people to vent and get rid of some toxic emotions, but when the posts and replies to them go on for pages, over some ultimately minor matter, it's sickening and sad.
And some of it posted by obviously disturbed and lonely people, wanting things they have no idea how to get or what they'd do if they actually got them. I suspect they'd be just as miserable.
It's scary that there are so many people out there who are so ignorant, or stupid or both, and so filled with hatred and inadequacy, when I read this stuff, I can't help wonder where these people work, do they have people who love them or whom they love, how do they get through their days with so much darkness in their souls?
I've been down before, and I'm down now, and I'm no saint. I have ugly thoughts - -more than I care to admit. But I don't get how you can carry that much hate and not explode. Is it something that goes back through the generations, like the psychologists would like us to think? That we learn what we live, so if we live in an atmosphere of ugliness and fury, that's how we'll learn to live as grown-ups? It seems too easy to me to blame it all on our families, or the town or city or, hell village, where we grew up.
That feels like a great big cop-out. My mommy didn't me give the love I needed, and that's why I became a criminal? Please. Your mommy was just a person, not perfect by any means. Maybe what we need is to just grow some responsibility for our actions and our selves, and grow the hell up.
They're like watching a nasty accident on the highway: you're riveted despite your horror and revulsion. I read these posts and everyday I'm appalled and dismayed by the hatred and ignorance spewed forth. There's a need for boards like RnR, for people to vent and get rid of some toxic emotions, but when the posts and replies to them go on for pages, over some ultimately minor matter, it's sickening and sad.
And some of it posted by obviously disturbed and lonely people, wanting things they have no idea how to get or what they'd do if they actually got them. I suspect they'd be just as miserable.
It's scary that there are so many people out there who are so ignorant, or stupid or both, and so filled with hatred and inadequacy, when I read this stuff, I can't help wonder where these people work, do they have people who love them or whom they love, how do they get through their days with so much darkness in their souls?
I've been down before, and I'm down now, and I'm no saint. I have ugly thoughts - -more than I care to admit. But I don't get how you can carry that much hate and not explode. Is it something that goes back through the generations, like the psychologists would like us to think? That we learn what we live, so if we live in an atmosphere of ugliness and fury, that's how we'll learn to live as grown-ups? It seems too easy to me to blame it all on our families, or the town or city or, hell village, where we grew up.
That feels like a great big cop-out. My mommy didn't me give the love I needed, and that's why I became a criminal? Please. Your mommy was just a person, not perfect by any means. Maybe what we need is to just grow some responsibility for our actions and our selves, and grow the hell up.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Interview update
This was a total waste of my time. I had completed an online app and gone thru all the assessment testing ONLINE. I went for the interview this morning as previously blogged, and they had me do the SAME things over again. Then they told us (there were 2 of us there) that the pay was $12.95/hr. That was LESS THAN what I'd been making. So I finished the damn tests AGAIN, and the HR *itch says, "I'll walk you out." Me: "That's it?" HRB: "We'll send you an email by tomorrow with our decision." It took me about an hour to get home and guess what was waiting in my email? You got it - an email telling me I was not being chosen.
I know there are no guarantees in this life, I understand if I'm not qualified for a job, but to not even do me the courtesy of a face to face interview??? Mind you, I was an employee in good standing when I was laid off, not on probation nor did I have any disciplinary actions open against me.
And sorry, but it took you LESS THAN AN HOUR to come to this decision and fire off an email? Something really stinks about that, does it not?
I also have a serious issue with this whole email shit, too. This is unprofessional. If you cannot be bothered to TALK to potential employees, what does that say about your corporate culture?
On the whole, I'm glad now that they didn't offer the job to me. I guarantee you I'll never apply for a job with that hell hole again and I'lll advise anybody who asks to do the same. Nobody deserves the treatment you'll get at this place.
I know there are no guarantees in this life, I understand if I'm not qualified for a job, but to not even do me the courtesy of a face to face interview??? Mind you, I was an employee in good standing when I was laid off, not on probation nor did I have any disciplinary actions open against me.
And sorry, but it took you LESS THAN AN HOUR to come to this decision and fire off an email? Something really stinks about that, does it not?
I also have a serious issue with this whole email shit, too. This is unprofessional. If you cannot be bothered to TALK to potential employees, what does that say about your corporate culture?
On the whole, I'm glad now that they didn't offer the job to me. I guarantee you I'll never apply for a job with that hell hole again and I'lll advise anybody who asks to do the same. Nobody deserves the treatment you'll get at this place.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Dilemma....
On a sado-masochistic whim, I applied for a job with my former employer - you know, the one that let me go in March and the impetus behind this blog. I filled out the online app and went thru an online skills assessment.
This morning, they emailed me, they want me to schedule an interview with them.
Ok, this job is in a completely different area than the one I was in previously. It's even a different subsidiary of the company. I'm thinking it's ok to do the interview, and if they make an offer, take it, but keep searching for another job. I know what to expect from this group, so I'm ahead of the game on that score. And it's the devil you know versus the devil you don't.
What was I thinking? Argh
This morning, they emailed me, they want me to schedule an interview with them.
Ok, this job is in a completely different area than the one I was in previously. It's even a different subsidiary of the company. I'm thinking it's ok to do the interview, and if they make an offer, take it, but keep searching for another job. I know what to expect from this group, so I'm ahead of the game on that score. And it's the devil you know versus the devil you don't.
What was I thinking? Argh
Friday, July 23, 2010
Five myths about unemployment
Five myths about unemployment
I found this on the Opinions page of the Washington Post this morning. Ms. Shierholz's mythbusting makes a lot of sense to me. My dad was a railroad worker, and suffered through several lay offs in his time. The difference then was that he knew he'd be called back to work at some point, so unemployment insurance was just that: insurance that he could keep his family fed during the temporary down times. Full disclosure: my mom also worked full time as a secretary all her adult life, so maybe we were a little bit luckier than some. And it WAS different. I can remember my dad's boss calling him to see how we were doing and to give him updates on when he might get called back in to work. But going from 2 full time incomes - even in the 1960s - down to 1 full time + UI benefits was still mighty tough. In the current economy, there's little breathing room. The statistics consistently say that's there're more job applicants than there are available jobs. It seems pretty clear to me that for a lot of people, myself included, UI benefits are the only thing keeping us from living in our cars. For the time being.
I'm not sure that UI is a big contributor to the economy, but I'd wager it is a factor - on UI, it's a fraction of your previous wages so the full amount is going to be spent, not saved. It's gonna be spent on necessities, like rent and utilities and food, but it's gonna get spent.
The point keeps being tossed out that the longer people are on UI, the less likely they are to actively seek work, that long term access to UI makes people lazy. Sure, I'll concede that there are some folks who have a crummy work ethic. I've worked right alongside them for many years and know how frustrating and infuriating it can be. But if somebody is lazy to start with, they're gonna be that whether they're working or not. I resent being lumped into that category by some six-figure politician who has no idea how the real world works. A separate reality? Not from where I stand. It's the old haves vs. have-nots all over again. The middle class is disappearing, and that's tragic. We're on our way back to the Dark Ages, back to serfs and vassals.
.....Thus ends the Friday rant.....
I found this on the Opinions page of the Washington Post this morning. Ms. Shierholz's mythbusting makes a lot of sense to me. My dad was a railroad worker, and suffered through several lay offs in his time. The difference then was that he knew he'd be called back to work at some point, so unemployment insurance was just that: insurance that he could keep his family fed during the temporary down times. Full disclosure: my mom also worked full time as a secretary all her adult life, so maybe we were a little bit luckier than some. And it WAS different. I can remember my dad's boss calling him to see how we were doing and to give him updates on when he might get called back in to work. But going from 2 full time incomes - even in the 1960s - down to 1 full time + UI benefits was still mighty tough. In the current economy, there's little breathing room. The statistics consistently say that's there're more job applicants than there are available jobs. It seems pretty clear to me that for a lot of people, myself included, UI benefits are the only thing keeping us from living in our cars. For the time being.
I'm not sure that UI is a big contributor to the economy, but I'd wager it is a factor - on UI, it's a fraction of your previous wages so the full amount is going to be spent, not saved. It's gonna be spent on necessities, like rent and utilities and food, but it's gonna get spent.
The point keeps being tossed out that the longer people are on UI, the less likely they are to actively seek work, that long term access to UI makes people lazy. Sure, I'll concede that there are some folks who have a crummy work ethic. I've worked right alongside them for many years and know how frustrating and infuriating it can be. But if somebody is lazy to start with, they're gonna be that whether they're working or not. I resent being lumped into that category by some six-figure politician who has no idea how the real world works. A separate reality? Not from where I stand. It's the old haves vs. have-nots all over again. The middle class is disappearing, and that's tragic. We're on our way back to the Dark Ages, back to serfs and vassals.
.....Thus ends the Friday rant.....
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
I Write Like Raymond Chandler
I Write Like Raymond Chandler
Found this nifty thing on an erotic writers' page. Go to IWL@codingrobots.com, paste a few paragraphs of your deathless prose and it analyzes your style, word choiuces etc and then tells you who you write like. Give it a try. I did 3 separate times, with 3 different pieces and got back Martha Mitchell, Leo Tolstoi and Raymond Chandler. Huh. Who knew?
Found this nifty thing on an erotic writers' page. Go to IWL@codingrobots.com, paste a few paragraphs of your deathless prose and it analyzes your style, word choiuces etc and then tells you who you write like. Give it a try. I did 3 separate times, with 3 different pieces and got back Martha Mitchell, Leo Tolstoi and Raymond Chandler. Huh. Who knew?
Friday, July 16, 2010
There are nice people still out there
I had to get some blood drawn this morning at the local hospital, to check cholesterol levels. I get called into the financial office e to do the paperwork and the lady asked me if I was still employed at Co."X". I said, no, sadly, I got laid off in March. She stopped typing and looked at me, and she said, "They did what?! Oh my God, I am so sorry! Are you OK?" I said I was fine, looking for a new job, etc. When she finished the paperwork she said, "Look, we have a new policy here that we're supposed to collect 20% of the coinsurance at the time you get the services." I must have turned white as a ghost, because lab work is expensive and I have an insanely high deductible, but she said, "But since you explained your situation, I'm not gonna do that. you can work this out with us later, OK?"
I'll still have to pay most of this bill, if not all, but it was a relief to my wallet not to have to pay it out this morning. Thank you, nice lady at the hospital!!!
I'll still have to pay most of this bill, if not all, but it was a relief to my wallet not to have to pay it out this morning. Thank you, nice lady at the hospital!!!
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
the loneliness of the long distance unemployed
One of the tough things that happens when you become unemployed is that you find out who your true friends are. Especially the longer you are without a job. I've noticed that people don't call as much, and even in the online forums (ie email, Facebook) they seem to be nonresponsive. That really hurts: unemployment is not contagious, or at least it's not spread thru human contact with the already-jobless.
At first, there's a lot of sympathy, people saying they'll keep an eye out for you or put in a good word. But now, after 3.5 months, or however long you've been on the dole, you're lucky if you get a one line email.
But the true friends, ahhh. They're the ones that will still invite you to join them for a drink, or return your calls or emails, and the first thing they ask is not "So, how's the job hunt going?" I hold these friends in my heart.
As for the others, well, for the time being I'm letting go. Maybe we can pick things up later, maybe not. But for now, energy must be conserved. It might be that they are really really busy, and I can understand that. But, as a teacher of mine once told me, when I was complainng about not having enough time to get things done, "All you have is time, it's how you choose to use it that matters. You make time for the things that are important."
At first, there's a lot of sympathy, people saying they'll keep an eye out for you or put in a good word. But now, after 3.5 months, or however long you've been on the dole, you're lucky if you get a one line email.
But the true friends, ahhh. They're the ones that will still invite you to join them for a drink, or return your calls or emails, and the first thing they ask is not "So, how's the job hunt going?" I hold these friends in my heart.
As for the others, well, for the time being I'm letting go. Maybe we can pick things up later, maybe not. But for now, energy must be conserved. It might be that they are really really busy, and I can understand that. But, as a teacher of mine once told me, when I was complainng about not having enough time to get things done, "All you have is time, it's how you choose to use it that matters. You make time for the things that are important."
Friday, July 9, 2010
Work Ethic?
I got a temp job at a local chiropractor's office and it's a neat job. Basically they have me taking the surveys they ask the patients to complete after treatment and turning them into a paragraph or two-length testimonial. Nice!
On my second day there, I arranged to go in at 10, after Wendy's vet appointment. When I walked in, the office manager lit up. She said, "I am so glad you came back today! The last girl the agency sent over never came back after the first day." She went on to tell me that the girl worked a full day, and when the office manager was trying to find the file she'd been working on, she realized that the girl hadn't saved any of her work. I offered, well, maybe she wasn't familiar with Word?
Ok, now maybe there was a good reason for this. I can't think of one, but who knows? What I find upsetting is the lack of professionalism, or just plain old courtesy, this other temp displayed. If she just hated sitting there drafting these things up, she could've (should've) let them know she wouldn't be back, rather than just abandoning the job. Really that's what the agency is there for - she could've (should've) explained it to them and let then deal with the client.
I've had jobs I dreaded going in to every morning, but unless there was clearly illegal activity, I would never just quit, abandon the post. It makes me angry to think here's a nice place, a neat job, and someone doesn't appreciate it. And that sort of casts other agency employees in a bad light: are they all like this? Can I trust this place to coem through when I need them?
Just one fo many things I just don't understand...
On my second day there, I arranged to go in at 10, after Wendy's vet appointment. When I walked in, the office manager lit up. She said, "I am so glad you came back today! The last girl the agency sent over never came back after the first day." She went on to tell me that the girl worked a full day, and when the office manager was trying to find the file she'd been working on, she realized that the girl hadn't saved any of her work. I offered, well, maybe she wasn't familiar with Word?
Ok, now maybe there was a good reason for this. I can't think of one, but who knows? What I find upsetting is the lack of professionalism, or just plain old courtesy, this other temp displayed. If she just hated sitting there drafting these things up, she could've (should've) let them know she wouldn't be back, rather than just abandoning the job. Really that's what the agency is there for - she could've (should've) explained it to them and let then deal with the client.
I've had jobs I dreaded going in to every morning, but unless there was clearly illegal activity, I would never just quit, abandon the post. It makes me angry to think here's a nice place, a neat job, and someone doesn't appreciate it. And that sort of casts other agency employees in a bad light: are they all like this? Can I trust this place to coem through when I need them?
Just one fo many things I just don't understand...
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Tuesday Rant
Can somone please tell me why people need to listen to their crappy music at full volume? I've been trying to do some work on my resume and my neighbors have their damn stereo LOUD. What's a girl to do? I've complained to the landlord numerous times, and he's warned them, but it does not seem to matter to these jerks. Any ideas, other than speaking directly to them (they're a scary bunch) or moving?
Monday, July 5, 2010
Independence Day
Hope everyone had a great 4th of July!
This is not an orginal thought, and my apologies to Elisabeth Kubler-Ross, but it occurred to me that in going through the loss of a job, we go through the same stages of coping as dealing with a diagnosis of a life-threatening disease:
1. Disbelief
2. Anger
3. Bargaining
4. Depression
5. Acceptance
They probably overlap - a lot! - but they're all there. It seems to me that it's important to go through them all in order to come out on the other side with a healthier outlook. If we let ourselves get stuck in any one stage, we're holding ourselves back from growth, growth that we need to have in order to triumph and go on to the next, better stage.
This is not an orginal thought, and my apologies to Elisabeth Kubler-Ross, but it occurred to me that in going through the loss of a job, we go through the same stages of coping as dealing with a diagnosis of a life-threatening disease:
1. Disbelief
2. Anger
3. Bargaining
4. Depression
5. Acceptance
They probably overlap - a lot! - but they're all there. It seems to me that it's important to go through them all in order to come out on the other side with a healthier outlook. If we let ourselves get stuck in any one stage, we're holding ourselves back from growth, growth that we need to have in order to triumph and go on to the next, better stage.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Saturday, July 3, 2010
New fiction on the writing page
Just click on the tab labeled "Writing", above, to get to the new story.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
March On Washington, D.C | Survive Unemployment!
March On Washington, D.C | Survive Unemployment!
Join the march!! Let your voices ring out against this atrocity and in favor of extending UE and creating good jobs!!!!!
Join the march!! Let your voices ring out against this atrocity and in favor of extending UE and creating good jobs!!!!!
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Meltdown!
So, at the interview yesterday, the interviewer asked me what my bottom line salary was, and I told her my ideal was $14/hr. She sort of frowned, so I asked, "Do I have a chance of getting it here?" and she said, "In West Virginia? Honestly, no." Well, at least she was honest, right?
But let's do the math. She said I could probably get $10/hr, so let's go with that. 10/hr x 40 hr/wk = $400 BEFORE TAXES, which comes to something like $330 after taxes. $330/wk x 4 wks/mo = $1320/mo. My rent, utilities, car insurance and COBRA come to $1100/mo, leaving $220/mo for food, car maintenance, gasoline, pet care. That's a whopping $55/wk. Filling my old but serviceable car's engine takes about $28, leaving $27 for surviving. Guess I should be OK with that, at least I can subsist on canned soup. And all that depends on working locally so I'm not using the car too much.
I'm not so much discouraged as I am pissed off, and beating myself over the head for moving here in the first place, and then staying here as long as I have. I know, I really do KNOW, that coulda-shoulda-woulda is a fool's game, and solves nothing, but for right now I'm gonna wallow in anger and get it all outta my system. Grrrrrr.
But let's do the math. She said I could probably get $10/hr, so let's go with that. 10/hr x 40 hr/wk = $400 BEFORE TAXES, which comes to something like $330 after taxes. $330/wk x 4 wks/mo = $1320/mo. My rent, utilities, car insurance and COBRA come to $1100/mo, leaving $220/mo for food, car maintenance, gasoline, pet care. That's a whopping $55/wk. Filling my old but serviceable car's engine takes about $28, leaving $27 for surviving. Guess I should be OK with that, at least I can subsist on canned soup. And all that depends on working locally so I'm not using the car too much.
I'm not so much discouraged as I am pissed off, and beating myself over the head for moving here in the first place, and then staying here as long as I have. I know, I really do KNOW, that coulda-shoulda-woulda is a fool's game, and solves nothing, but for right now I'm gonna wallow in anger and get it all outta my system. Grrrrrr.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Postively, Think Positive!
OK, so off I go this morning for an interview with a local employment agency. I'm hoping, of course, that they'll be able to find something or, better yet, have something already in their files for me.
Yesterday, I did get some hopeful news. I was applying for a position with an organization I'd tried with once before, and when I entered my info on the Web site, I got a message that I was already being considered for the position. Cool!
Then, a friend emailed me that her bro-in-law, a fed employee, was looking to hire. I'd already sent my resume, and my friend said she'd recommended me highly. Next step is to email bro-in-law.
Don't want to get my hopes up (again) but need to be positive, right? Right!
Yesterday, I did get some hopeful news. I was applying for a position with an organization I'd tried with once before, and when I entered my info on the Web site, I got a message that I was already being considered for the position. Cool!
Then, a friend emailed me that her bro-in-law, a fed employee, was looking to hire. I'd already sent my resume, and my friend said she'd recommended me highly. Next step is to email bro-in-law.
Don't want to get my hopes up (again) but need to be positive, right? Right!
Friday, June 25, 2010
TGIF
It's odd but I still rejoice in the fact that it's Friday. No good reason for it, Saturday and Sunday don't absolve me of the responsibility of job seeking. Actually, the Sunday papers generally have the most employment ads. So why this elation, this TGIF! attitude? I have no idea.
You may have seen the news that the Senate blocked the Emergency Unemployment extension last night. Way to go, guys. Nice job. Do you not get that the $30 mil this would have cost is a drop in the bucket compared to the amount spent on defense?
They should be ashamed.
You may have seen the news that the Senate blocked the Emergency Unemployment extension last night. Way to go, guys. Nice job. Do you not get that the $30 mil this would have cost is a drop in the bucket compared to the amount spent on defense?
They should be ashamed.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
New Page!
Had a brainstorm last night - I write fiction, and am trying to publish something somewhere, so why not add a page to this blog to put some stuff out there? So, check out the new page, let me know what you think. Thanks!
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Some Tips to Get Through the Day...
If you're reading this, you're probably unemployed or underemployed, right? And it's a daunting task to fill the day with meaningful stuff, isn't it? Here are some things that are helping me get through the days:
1) Set a schedule for yourself. Set the alarm clock, get up, shower, have coffee. I spend the mornings trolling the job boards and online newspapers, writing cover letters, etc.
2) Try to find at least one thing everyday that will get you out of the house/apartment - go for a walk, ride your bike, whatever. It's helpful to move and will make you feel less depressed. Honest.
3) Do you have a hobby? As long as it isn't a real money drain, indulge. Who knows, it could lead to something else, right?
4) Be kind to yourself, be good to yourself. Give yourself permission to take a break from the hard work of looking for work every once in awhile and read a book, watch a good movie. (Libraries are your friends!)
5) Make sure you have contact with friends and family, it's so important not to become a recluse. (I'm in danger of becoming the crazy cat lady on my block.)
6) Teach yourself a new skill - I'm trying to improve my typing and learn PowerPoint.
Lots of folks say they find volunteering to be helpful. I'm trying to find a volunteer opportunity or 2 in my community, and I'll let you know. I think it's also a good way to get out of your own head for a bit - self-absorption is NOT a good long term strategy.
Seriously, the most important thing that I can think of is: Try not to despair, even though it's so easy to feel worthless and beaten. Let me know what you think!
1) Set a schedule for yourself. Set the alarm clock, get up, shower, have coffee. I spend the mornings trolling the job boards and online newspapers, writing cover letters, etc.
2) Try to find at least one thing everyday that will get you out of the house/apartment - go for a walk, ride your bike, whatever. It's helpful to move and will make you feel less depressed. Honest.
3) Do you have a hobby? As long as it isn't a real money drain, indulge. Who knows, it could lead to something else, right?
4) Be kind to yourself, be good to yourself. Give yourself permission to take a break from the hard work of looking for work every once in awhile and read a book, watch a good movie. (Libraries are your friends!)
5) Make sure you have contact with friends and family, it's so important not to become a recluse. (I'm in danger of becoming the crazy cat lady on my block.)
6) Teach yourself a new skill - I'm trying to improve my typing and learn PowerPoint.
Lots of folks say they find volunteering to be helpful. I'm trying to find a volunteer opportunity or 2 in my community, and I'll let you know. I think it's also a good way to get out of your own head for a bit - self-absorption is NOT a good long term strategy.
Seriously, the most important thing that I can think of is: Try not to despair, even though it's so easy to feel worthless and beaten. Let me know what you think!
Giving credit where credit's due
I really have to fix something here:
The picture on here, of the sweet peas, was taken by a friend of mine, Melissa, who relocated to Boulder, Co several years ago. She sends me these amazing photos of sights in her neighborhood, and I was remiss in not crediting her for the photo right from the start. Sorry, Melissa!
She's also entered several photos in a contest, let's wish her all the luck! GO, MELISSA!! YOU ROCK!!
The picture on here, of the sweet peas, was taken by a friend of mine, Melissa, who relocated to Boulder, Co several years ago. She sends me these amazing photos of sights in her neighborhood, and I was remiss in not crediting her for the photo right from the start. Sorry, Melissa!
She's also entered several photos in a contest, let's wish her all the luck! GO, MELISSA!! YOU ROCK!!
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Online Finger Meditation Tool
Online Finger Meditation Tool
I've been fascinated with labyrinths for years, ever since I saw a woman on the Today show demonstrate how to draw one of your own. Then I found the Grace Cathedral labyrinth website and this meditation tool. Give it a try: just trace your way around the labyrinth slowly, let your mind go blank. it's a peaceful little moment. have fun!
I've been fascinated with labyrinths for years, ever since I saw a woman on the Today show demonstrate how to draw one of your own. Then I found the Grace Cathedral labyrinth website and this meditation tool. Give it a try: just trace your way around the labyrinth slowly, let your mind go blank. it's a peaceful little moment. have fun!
Didn't post yesterday because I was running around registering with employment agencies, which I know I needed to do, but just doubt it'll do much good.
I find myself getting enraged at the smallest things, I mean seeing-red-mad. I know it's because I feel impotent and vulnerable, but the anger is starting to scare me. I want some revenge against the company that downsized me, I want to see the building burning and crashing to ground and rats running rampant over it all. I want to see the executives homeless and begging on the side of the road. I don't care if this is mean spirited. I don't care.
I'm tired of it all, all of it.
I find myself getting enraged at the smallest things, I mean seeing-red-mad. I know it's because I feel impotent and vulnerable, but the anger is starting to scare me. I want some revenge against the company that downsized me, I want to see the building burning and crashing to ground and rats running rampant over it all. I want to see the executives homeless and begging on the side of the road. I don't care if this is mean spirited. I don't care.
I'm tired of it all, all of it.
Friday, June 18, 2010
The Unemployed Need Not Apply
The Unemployed Need Not Apply
I found this on another blog, survive unemployment!, and had to post this, because it's just wrong. I haven't seen or experienced this yet in my area, but I don't doubt that when I tell an interviewer that I was downsized, it's certainly not a mark in my favor.
That's wrong, wrong, wrong. Like the original post says, I could do nothing to control the situation at my former employer. In the meeting where we were let go, they even told us that the decision was NOT BASED ON PERFORMANCE, that we were all excellent employees. (Corollary question: if not performance-based, then what in hell does performance count for? Discuss. Also, why would you dump excellent people?)
Is it another sign that the economy is really in the tank? Or is it a regional phenomenon?
Of course, I stupidly relocated to an area where good jobs are few and far between, unless you're willing to super commute. (Which I am. ) So the idea of it being regional sort of makes some kind of twisted sense: too many people and too few jobs.
But still, this kind of discrimination - like ALL discrimination - is reprehensible.
I found this on another blog, survive unemployment!, and had to post this, because it's just wrong. I haven't seen or experienced this yet in my area, but I don't doubt that when I tell an interviewer that I was downsized, it's certainly not a mark in my favor.
That's wrong, wrong, wrong. Like the original post says, I could do nothing to control the situation at my former employer. In the meeting where we were let go, they even told us that the decision was NOT BASED ON PERFORMANCE, that we were all excellent employees. (Corollary question: if not performance-based, then what in hell does performance count for? Discuss. Also, why would you dump excellent people?)
Is it another sign that the economy is really in the tank? Or is it a regional phenomenon?
Of course, I stupidly relocated to an area where good jobs are few and far between, unless you're willing to super commute. (Which I am. ) So the idea of it being regional sort of makes some kind of twisted sense: too many people and too few jobs.
But still, this kind of discrimination - like ALL discrimination - is reprehensible.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
random thoughts on a gloomy day
It's muggy and rainy here in Wild, Wonderful West-by-God today. Dark rainy days remind me of being a kid in grade school. The days when it was cold and rainy in the early autumn, and the teachers would turn on those big overhead lights that looked like ice cube trays, I would always feel like I was in another little world, all safe and warm. I'd look up from my schoolwork in the bright room and see out the windows the dark and rain pouring down. I hated rainy days back then - seemed like it always rained on the days of the school field trips or when my family was going to the pool for the day. Now, I like them, look forward to them. I especially like when thunder wakes me up at night and the cats are curled at my feet in bed. I still have that feeling of safe harbor, that I'm protected somehow.
Monday, June 14, 2010
Hot and bored today. Maybe I should move someplace cold, like Antarctica....and watch the ice melt....
It's in the morning that I'm most down about the job situation, and I tend to surf the Internet, looking for jobs and job-related news. Reading news items about the current state of the economy is not helpful, just terrifying. Waiting to see what happens with the UE extension, praying that the feds approve the extension and praying even harder that I won't need to use it.
On another topic: Don't ever paint your stairs white. I don't mean the walls, I mean the actual stairs. At the time, it seemed like a good idea: the staircase was dark and dingy, so I painted the walls a nice creamy yellow and the ceiling a sky blue. I had loads of white gloss paint left, so I figured the extra white would help brighten things up. It did, but it shows every little dust bunny and smudge. Fail.
It's in the morning that I'm most down about the job situation, and I tend to surf the Internet, looking for jobs and job-related news. Reading news items about the current state of the economy is not helpful, just terrifying. Waiting to see what happens with the UE extension, praying that the feds approve the extension and praying even harder that I won't need to use it.
On another topic: Don't ever paint your stairs white. I don't mean the walls, I mean the actual stairs. At the time, it seemed like a good idea: the staircase was dark and dingy, so I painted the walls a nice creamy yellow and the ceiling a sky blue. I had loads of white gloss paint left, so I figured the extra white would help brighten things up. It did, but it shows every little dust bunny and smudge. Fail.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Here's my story: I was downsized - ugly word, isn't it?- on March 1, 2010. I guess I'm a little luckier than most because I snagged a job with the census right off the bat. Cool, right? Sure, except it's a short term solution - these jobs weren't meant to last forever. But it's a good way to keep myself busy and earn a little money.
I'm not a kid any more, either. I'm in my early 50's (which is a challenge all by itself) and have an unusual family situation. If you're also unemployed, you probably have the same feelings I do - anger, sadness, worry about what's going to happen next - and dealing with it all can feel as futile as emptying the ocean a teaspoon at a time.
I decided to start a blog because I can feel my brain getting mushy from lack of stimulation. So i figured I'd start this and challenge myself to write something here every day. I can't promise it will be great literature, but I'll try to make it marginally interesting, and not rant too much about the injustice of it all. So, thanks for checking this out, hope you come back!
I'm not a kid any more, either. I'm in my early 50's (which is a challenge all by itself) and have an unusual family situation. If you're also unemployed, you probably have the same feelings I do - anger, sadness, worry about what's going to happen next - and dealing with it all can feel as futile as emptying the ocean a teaspoon at a time.
I decided to start a blog because I can feel my brain getting mushy from lack of stimulation. So i figured I'd start this and challenge myself to write something here every day. I can't promise it will be great literature, but I'll try to make it marginally interesting, and not rant too much about the injustice of it all. So, thanks for checking this out, hope you come back!
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